you came with your belly protruding
all of 16
up the elevator
to the receptionist who
doesn’t press you about
today’s visit

but I know and you know
a determination will be made:
gestational age
fatherhood
the May day event
or the June rainy aberrant night?
both
came and went

you tell me your mother and father
do not know
nor will they approve
but you hope not to lose
this attachment to love
that seems out of place
and in place at the same time

you ask my opinion
I say,
“let your own voice judge,
your own judge voice.”

and I know
and you know
the one decision answer