the association with carla has changed my life
I think of her whenever I am in strife
I am reminded of life and death
and how to enjoy and cope with same

for life - allowing happiness
and taking those risks and adventures I would not normally undertake
for death - to honor its coming and accept it with integrity

resting in peace is what she will do
but then I wonder - maybe it will not be total peace there in carla's heaven
moreso, a rally for unleashing peace to the heights of raucous laughter
raucous, fucking laughter at that!

RIP lady, RIP...